When I walked here I felt my father very strongly with me, he said "stay with your attention with me" but after a few steps my attention weakened and again he said "focus, stay with me". He let me experience the distance between him and myself and how difficult it is not to be distracted by external stimuli.
That led me to look at myself and still have a feeling that I was failing. My own father and I couldn't keep my attention on him. But it was as if he then wanted to make clear to me what the exercise really was; nobody is perfect! We will be hurt, cheated and things expected of us that we cannot meet. Only when we find peace and acceptance in ourselves for who we are, do we begin to live. Then we will express who we are and take responsibility for it.
Then we don't need God to find justification for our actions. Then we no longer place people on a pedestal so that they can look down on us. Then nothing or nobody has to be forgiven. Then life just ripples, just like the water here in front of me. Without judgment, just taking her place in life. Giving space for life. Yep! Nature is my church. I learn so much from her.