Playing hide-and-seek, who didn't enjoy it as a child? But even as an adult, I am... or was capable of playing hide-and-seek. I could always blame it on my star sign The Scorpio; the mysterious creature that likes to hide in the smallest nooks and crannies and remain unseen. And that was also my big challenge, because how do you stay unseen with a height of almost 2 metres? Now, of course, I am no longer that insecure adolescent with childhood pimples, a mat on my neck and hunched shoulders. But still, being seen was not a necessity.

I'm a bit of a strange person! Because in all my ‘insecurity’, I joined a band anyway and we travelled town and country to play. We performed in a prison, lots of gore-filled pubs and super cool festivals; I've seen it, done it and got the sweaty t-shirts. But that wasn't enough and eventually I overcame my trepidation to sing. Took some effort and persuasion, but there I went as a singer-songwriter. I remember that first performance as a songwriter very well; nervous as hell, only four songs and my mouth so dry, I couldn't even grow a cactus in it. But as I am writing this now, I survived that too.

Still, it really could be crazier! It felt a bit like coming out of the closet, but different! Although, maybe not, ach.... It was more like the genie crawling out of the bottle. Instead of rubbing it twice, I blinked my eyes twice and looked at a ‘ghost’ who gave me all sorts of information I knew nothing about but which was true in retrospect. Holy sh... how could this be? A journey began that led to me now having this website and presenting myself as a medium. Yep, the same guy who in this life also had beer thrown over him head-banging on Morbid Angel and jumped off stages because it was cool to come home with bruises after going out.

And so, little by little, I am becoming more visible. A few weeks ago, my girlfriend asked me; why do you almost always write in English? Rattle rattle in that upper chamber and the honest answer rose from my feelings; imagine that people in my own environment, in the Netherlands, read and understand what I write? It was a piece of anonymity and there it is again; visibility. Over the past few months, super cool projects have emerged but with that it is also important, or at least useful, for me to make myself visible.

And so there was one more little thing I had to take a hard look at myself for. If there was one thing I was really not happy about it was wearing glasses. Yes folks, I have lenses, I don't just do clairvoyance but see sharp thanks to some technical marvels. Yes fainter you can't get it from me. When I told my optician that thanks to him, I don't know if he thought it was funny or it scared me. Anyway! So I got myself some nice glasses. It's time I just let myself be seen, just like everyone else should be seen. Playing hide-and-seek is fun for children, but as an adult the fun is now gone.