It sounds like the poison of society; loneliness, being alone. We quickly think of older people who have lost the love of their lives and are only waiting for the deliverance of death so that they may be reunited. Loneliness; a spectre for many. But loneliness does not have to be only physical in nature, and not just something older people have to deal with. Loneliness is characterised by versatility and affects everyone.
Besides the physical experience, one can also be mentally lonely or emotionally lonely. When you move among people, with your family, friends or your partner. Lonely because you don't experience connecting with those who are so close. Mentally, because your thoughts and ideas are not being heard by those you so desperately want them to hear you. That they take you seriously or at least give you the space to share that piece of yourself. You can feel so alone in that that it seems even worse than physical loneliness.
Deeper into the emotional experience, you also encounter spiritual loneliness. Does life have meaning at all, what offers meaning when everything already seems so bare and stripped down. What then drives you to continue, to want to live on. Especially in the development as a medium, where you may experience that communication can take place with a dimension that seems to be hidden for many, loneliness can touch you deeply.
From this fact, then, I want to look at the real beauty of loneliness. Solitude not as something that grieves, or that we ‘should’ feel sorry for, but as a strength and victory. When we no longer seek rest, peace and love outside ourselves, but with ourselves. When we no longer need to mirror our mental experience on the other and not seek approval for what we experience. When our deep emotional layers are healed to the extent that we can look at it as part of who we are. That it has contributed to our growth. That we don't need a God or spiritual world to find meaning for life.
Loneliness then slowly but surely becomes our friend. It provides us with our most intimate relationship with ourselves. We realise that we are already one. Living together then becomes a whole new experience where each is allowed to be one. As I write this now, it touches me deeply to be allowed to realise this. I just went for a walk, I was angry, I felt lonely and abandoned. And slowly but surely this feeling of understanding flowed into my heart to my conscious being. Loneliness, as a key to our self because we are already one.
